Tonight I came very close to skipping a night’s work here at the laptop, again because I was feeling a little drained, mentally and physically. I am proud of myself that I forced myself to log into my Word account, and, even though I got off to a very sluggish start, managed to get to (and even a little beyond) the 1667 words daily required to keep me on task.
Although I slept late this morning, I had a productive afternoon. A friend and I visited a young married couple we know, who just moved to Olentangy St., which is a 10- or 15-minute walk (depending on my pace) from my place. I am quite fond of all three of these people, and it was wonderful to visit them. I cannot say that I was itching the whole time to get to the keyboard and get to work. I love these people, but lately, spending a lot of time with people makes me feel like I’ve just given a pint of blood.
I felt the same way at a post-Halloween party I went to last night. The house on N. 4th St. was much more crowded than the small gathering I went to this afternoon, the music was much louder, and I was one of the few people there who wasn’t drinking. (All four of us who were together today are teetotalers.) I had some very good conversations with people I had not seen in ages, and the hostess and her housemates are the type of people who put you in a good mood no matter how depressed you are beforehand. I left that party a little before 3 a.m. (“the dark night of the soul”), but didn’t get to bed until nearly 5:30.
In the hours between coming home and finally going to sleep for the night, I did nothing creative. I didn’t pick up a pen to write in the holographic diary, and I didn’t even send emails. The idea of adding to the NaNoWriMo project didn’t even occur to me. All I drank at the party was water, Fuze, and Snapple, so it’s not that my cognitive ability had suffered.
Tonight, I thought I would run out of steam when I came very close to my nightly quota. I felt like I had reached my limit when I was less than 50 words from my goal. I had to coax myself to get to them, and I even did about 70 afterwards, but it was more difficult than usual.